I wrote this in my journal on May 10th and thought I would put it out there to share how I sometimes feel on this journey on the days when it isn't easy....

It is such a priviledge to be meeting some of the greatest teachers in the world and working side by side with them and seeing that my songs have credibility and add meaning. Yet, in the midst of all that I am feeling small and scared today. It doesn't stop me from getting up on stage and doing my job, but once I am off I am feeling like I'm not good enough, I'm all alone, no-one takes me seriously. There is a big lesson in this – HUGE.


The minute my success starts unfolding it is as if I unconsiously start sabotaging it to keep myself small. The very thing I talk to people about doing – allowing yourself to shine - I guess I am doing myself even when it scares me. I think I will start to share that with people – my strength is that even when I am feeling terrified that is wont happen for me, or why do I have the right to shine, I still get up there and do it. I carry on regardless and commit to showing up for this dream I am creating.


Along the way I still create some drama for myself, but at the end of the day I do show up. I share honestly and openly with people and I need to acknowledge how powerful that is. I am learning to be an inspirational speaker. I am giving people my songs to take home and have in their lives. I am giving people my journey to see what is possible for them. I am playing on a HUGE stage with some of the most inspiring people on the planet. Even though today I am feeling a little scared and unappreciated because I haven't sold many CD's YET – I am so aware of the opportunity before me where my music is getting out there and I am doing my job of inspiring people.


Thank you for putting me here, even with tears welling up behind my eyes and threatening to flow at any moment, I am still here, I am still planning what to say next, what to sing next. I am still daring to dream that all of this is possible for me. That I will be on Oprah. That I will sell 10 million albums and raise over R160million for my charities. That I will be a voice for hope and change and inspiration in the world. That I will play to packed audiences of millions of people around the world who come to listen, to sing, to dance, to rejoice and be counted. That I will impact millions of lives with the story of my courage to just try – to get out there and give it my all.


Today I am truly standing in the middle of the road I am on and making another choice to keep on walking even though I have less that no idea what is around the corner. Even though I have no idea where the next pay cheque will come from. Even though I have no idea of how my dreams will come true. These are the moments that define us – the ones when we keep on going, keep on reaching and keep on thinking bigger than we would dare to dream is possible for us. This is that moment for me...