The last few weeks have felt like a whirlwind and I find myself out of breath and overwhelmed in many ways. It has felt like a dream to watch the last 300 copies of my album be bought and to suddenly be thrust into the limelight with tv, radio and newspaper interviews. All of sudden this goal I have been reaching for is within my reach and I feel excited and terrified. I keep confronting the question of who am I when I am not selling an album that doesn't exist? The last three years of my life have been defined by this project and suddenly it is almost done and everyone wants to talk to me about it and in a matter of weeks it will be on the shelves and in 2000 homes around the world.
I am a few days away from my birthday and the 13th anniversary of writing my first song, and it feel s fitting in many ways that things are all happening around this time. I said to someone the other day that if I had known it would take this long, I might never have started. I guess that is the truth with everything. But the longer the journey, the fitter we are when we get there. And while I am an incredibly 'fit' singer and speaker as a result of this experience I am feeling daunted at the demands that comes with achieving this dream. I am also praying that the risks I have taken to follow this dream actually pay off and I can have a successful and prosperous career as a result.
So, I find myself in unchartered waters but also incredibly loved and supported by so many people who want to see this all come to be. I think taking time out to just say thank you for the journey so far will be a good start, so that I can face whatever is around the corner with a sure step and smile.
Shew - one step at a time!
