This is one of those things I don't want to write about. I feel like if I don't put it down on paper then its not really happening. But the sad thing is that it is. A month ago our family got turned upside down with the news that my mum has stage 4 lung cancer. It has been a surreal experience of coming to terms with it all and we are having to just take each day as it comes. I have found my whole life thrown into harsh relief of what really matters and what doesn't. Suddenly work is a hard thing to do when I could rather be with her enjoying each moment. All the chasing of material gains seems incredibly futile when faced with losing my mother - it is a loss I can't fathom right now.

I was unsure whether to share this news, but the truth is my work is a journey and my journey is my life and in my life right now my mum is really sick. The next few months are going to drag us all through the fire of life and there is no way that wont impact on who we are and what we do going forward. I am so grateful for this time to just be with her and celebrate her and for us to be able to say everything we want to say. I know that it is a precious gift to have this time however painful the reality of the outcome may be. So for now I am going to take things one day at a time and love my mother with every drop of emotion in my body and pray that whatever is to come is as gentle as can be hoped for.